A Day of Challenges

May God give you strength to bear this pain..

Hi Jan, I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you today. I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling. Sending you hugs and strength to get you through the days ahead. Lisa xxx

Thank you Reham and lace.....I truly appreciate your prayers and thoughts. I laugh, I cry, I live. I am thankful for all that I have been blessed with, but I have a hard time accepting God's plan sometimes. ♥

Jan♥ have missed you here I have been away from here for some time now. Sending you many HUGS♥ ......Sometimes I too have a hard time accepting what Gods plan is for me.

LOVE AG♥

Hello AG.....sending you HUGS....Jan ♥

Just be Patient Jan ...it is a matter of time,
if God knows that you can not handle it, he would have never took ur son...

stay strong ..

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oh sweet kindred soul....

my soul wails knowing you are in such pain. connections with humans are difficult and scary for me-- but holding your hand gave me hope that i can truly FEEL and not self-destruct. that physical connection proved to be far more loving and helpful than disappointing. disappointment [in myself, as a theme] tends to take over my life, you know.

i wish i could have held your hand sooner... i wish i could have been there for you in that way far soooooooner than yesterday. my fears have been far greater and more consuming than i really knew.

i wanted to BE there for you, to be with you, to hold your hand yesterday [and many days prior]. and yesterday, i did it. i did it for you....and learned that it was okay to do it for ME also.

i love you, jan. i have feared the monster within me and have restrained myself from physically reaching out b/c of that fear. i am grateful to have been able to hold your hand. i felt a connection that i have never allowed myself to feel- it was true and pure and human.

my heart is filled with sorrow for you today....and yet i will do nothing to harm myself b/c of it. i wrap my heart around you and hold you tightly. it's a new and different feeling of love and compassion that is borne in my heart today. i am with you. i love you. i miss you.

namaste, my friend. thank you for your patience with me and for allowing me to grow and learn in your loving presence.
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Hi Jan, my thoughts and prayers are with you on this day. You are so strong and such an inspiration, I am confident you can get through this difficult period.

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Simone...thank you.......My pain and sorrow are balanced by the love and support I have around me and throughout my life. The memories fall far too short for my 'boy', but I am reminded daily of the blessings I have been given.

Amy.....holding my hand.....literally, was a gift I internalized. At first I hesitated that YOU would be uncomfortable, and then I decided I would let YOU decide that. Thank you for your love and friendship. It's exciting to see you alive, laughing and seeking what you deserve in your life.....emotional honesty and peace.
HUGS...Jan

Jan I have only had the opportunity to know you through a few postings. Your wise advice and love for all is evident. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Nothing can prepare you for what you are feeling. It is hard to face and deal with. However, prayers, time and tears make it softer. I will be putting you on my lists. You are an amazing woman.
JA