Eating Disorder Support Group
Feeling so ill and drained from it all now. Why does it hit so hard when relapses. It feels so un controllable. How do get back up?
I'm starting to have suicidal thoughts again. I'm dealing with an eating disorder. I have OSFED.
I cant sleep today. Tomorrow starts a very difficult week. But it only depends on me wether it goes like hell or like a nice walk. Thats what scares me the most.
eating triggers the same feelings as "go kill yourself." everytime I sit down, breathe, feel my body, all I can hear is "kill myself".
I am fat, ugly, and terrible and I don't want the world to see it anymore.